I think I got off from the wrong side of the bed this morning. My mood has been really g-r-o-u-c-h-y. Was it the flu that's bugging me since mid-week? The sweltering hot weather that's making JT sticky and (absolutely not) nice? The work that I brought home and kept me up till 3am the previous night? Or was it caused by something else?
I was listening to my girlfriend talking about her change in career and current post-graduate studies recently. Something pricked me and left me intrigued, as she accounted her proposed short and medium term plans in great detail - current diploma, overseas MBA. Somehow, it was her and her plans. I was not in the picture. ZILCH. Did she unintentionally left me out of the picture? Or was I zapped out of her plans? I really hope it is the former.
I hope I am not having unreasonable expectations. I have shamelessly included her in my lifestyle - my weekends, my leave, the time with my friends, and my hours at night. I'll picture a place of our own with fixtures that both of us like whenever I read my favourite home furnishing magazines. I have also hesitated making major decisions that may pose challenges to our relationship, turning some job offers in the Fragrant Harbour. Just got me thinking if she feels the same too?
So there I was, stuck in my gym on a Saturday afternoon killing the calories from lunch, while she returned home to prepare for her exam next week. If there is a molotov I can make, it would consist of:-
- Lousy mood (check)
- Heavy thoughts (check)
- Stuffy nose (check)
- Blazing hot afternoon weather (check)
A familiar song at the gym lifted my spirits slightly. Well, I thought I needed more deep dirty house music to dispel the negative energy, so I invited the rest of the happy family (Safri Duo, Spiller, Bob Sinclair, and the likes) that are stored in my nifty mobile phone.
Yea. What a crowd, I know. I so need good vibes when I am having a bad day.
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